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HOOBASTANK LYRICS - If I Were You

HOOBASTANK LYRICS

"If I Were You"

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless its to complain
Its driving me insane

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars for all that i have
If i were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
Tell the ones I love that i do
If i were you

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the ones I love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I've wanted to
If i were you


HOOBASTANK LYRICS - If I Were You

I dont have to participate in insanity.

I walked into laylo's Hurricane Katrina's House and saw that baby smiling, laughing and having a good time laying on his stomache eating a popsicle. The smile on that kids face was precious. Then you put him in the walker he started to cry. I started to get down on my knees and make a funny face at him and suddenly all around me like I wasn't even there I saw men in uniforms trashing around the living room. Throwing shit everywhere trying to uncover stuff. They where there looking for dope. The baby is crying. These people are walking all around me, still as if I wasn't even there. Then a black lady from child protective services reached down to pick up the baby.... .. and then they where gone. Just like they where not even there at all. That's because they where not there. I had just realized it was just a vision. Kind of like dejauvoo only this seemed very real to me.

I tried to blow it off ny saying I was just really stoned. But I can't. It really fucked with me. What I saw I know will happen. When I don't know. I do know that it wont matter if I am there when or if it does. I know it wont matter who is there. I just know after seeing that I don't have to be a part of it or contribute to it.

The vibe I got from Layloo and her old man was a very good one without bad intent and with much love in their hearts. They are just letting things go on in their house so they can get by and maybe get a little stuff for themselves for free. I don't think they even realize any of the consequences of whats going on when they make D deals for people they don't even know. I am shure if they did they would know its not hardly worth the cost of that baby being taken from its home and the smile on his face he would miss everyday all over a stupid dope deal or a snitch tweaker that ratted them out.

I couldn't be a part of it. I have never had a vision like that before. I left there went and saw Julie for Leo and then went straight to his house to talk to him about what I saw at their house. That's how bad it bothered me. He said it was just a premonition. But I had never had one of those before. I felt powerless. I am powerless over it. I had to leave.

Then I thought about YOU and your conscience over it.
I'm not all high and mighty. My shit stinks just like everyone else's does. My self worth is just alot higher than alot of peoples. I have my personal boundries. What I saw today was unacceptable. I chose not to be a part of it.

As for you and self worth. Its my own fault I feel disappointed in you. I had no right to place an expectation on you that you could not live up to. No right to expect anything. No expectation. No disappointment. Sounds good, but I cant seem to practice it.

NEVER EXPECT MORE THAN YOU ARE WILLING TO GIVE!

Why don't you try and live by that for one week and see how you feel about yourself at the end of the week. I live like that everyday. I am a much better person then I ever had been today because of it. It will work for you to.

Unconditional Positive Regard.

WordNet - Cite This Source
duty
noun

1.
work that you are obliged to perform for moral or legal reasons; "the duties of the job"
2.
the social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force; "we must instill a sense of duty in our children"; "every right implies a responsibility; every opportunity, an obligation; every possession, a duty"- John D.Rockefeller Jr
3.
a government tax on imports or exports; "they signed a treaty to lower duties on trade between their countries"
WordNet® 2.1, © 2005 Princeton University

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responsibility
noun

1.
the social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force; "we must instill a sense of duty in our children"; "every right implies a responsibility; every opportunity, an obligation; every possession, a duty"- John D.Rockefeller Jr [syn: duty]
2.
the proper sphere or extent of your activities; "it was his province to take care of himself" [syn: province]
3.
a form of trustworthiness; the trait of being answerable to someone for something or being responsible for one's conduct; "he holds a position of great responsibility" [ant: irresponsibility]
WordNet® 2.1, © 2005 Princeton University

Unconditional Positive Regard.

jc

Back At The Ranch

…meanwhile back at the Ranch. The Names and places in the story you are about to hear are not fiction. None of them have been changed to protect any ones identity or moral character or lack of having any common sense. This is the real world and the life and times of the fucked up people in it. Las Vegas, Nevada. SouthEast Area Comand.

Here’s a brief summury of events as my memory recalls since we last saw each other. ~ It was a Friday and I had told you if you where going to be a thief you where not welcome in my home to hang out because I didn’t intnend on going backwards and you where determined to. You left and that was the last time I saw you. Than evening I was admitted into the hospital where I stayed until Tuesday. When I got out I heard you where in jail and I felt guilty for telling you that you could not hang at my house. But don’t worry. I got over that guilt real fast realizing you where bound and determined to go anyway.

Nothing much changed over the next few months except me being in and out of the hospital a lot for stupid shit. I finally got used to my meds and today I am doing great. I am Undetectable and healthy. Yaay!! Linda continued to bounce between Rick and Duffy. Bobbie went down shortly after you did and yes the woman you been writing to is her. I don’t know when she gets out. I haven’t made it my business. That crowd totally vanished. Dope prices then sky rocketed and have maintained unbelievable prices ever since. I’m talking 100 T, 200 ball yadi yadi yadi. The neighborhood has gotten worse. Its not even safe to walk to 7-11 from my house sometimes.

Thrusting into the spring, like I always do April was about to arrive so let me bring you up to speed. I have finally gotten my health under control. No Hospitals doing great. Linda finally has had enough of Duffy and leaves him. She gets a good job at Circle K and I am up her ass constantly taking her and picking her up from work not giving her a moment to sit around and think about Duffy. This was the 11th time she tried to make it with him and failed. I told her that if she did it again I was done with her and I ment it. I can deal with ignorance but I can not deal with stupidity. She never went back to him again.

A time to learn. My self worth and self esteem has been on the rise. I’ve been learning a lot with my friend and mentor, companion Leo. You may remember me mentioning him. He has 2 masters and a phd. He is a Shrink works at a psychiatric hospital. He’s into Meta Physics, Belief Systems, and he is a third degree Pegan. I have learned with him for 14 months now. I have become aware of self and everything around me, yes even when I’m not high 

For some reason Pat started getting closer to me and I brought him and linda back to speaking turns. Pat and I where on the way back from scoring one night when I told him a lot of things where about to happen in his life and what ever happened I wanted him to know I would be there for him. I told him what ever you do don’t get your self locked up with your anger or range. I didn’t know exactly what was about to unfild. I just knew it wasn’t gonna be pretty.

Pats dad sold the house they lived in. Janice had left hm and moved in with another man and Pat took care of his dad for months waiting on him hand and foot. He got pretty sick. Him and pat moved into an apartment where Pat took care of him. Then pats dad got better for a few weeks in wich time he took care of all his loose ends and made arrangements that needed to be made and so forth. A week later April 3, 2006 pats father passed away in his apartment monitored by home helath care. Things where about to change drastically for Pat.

Janice’s sister came down for the death. They got Janice all fucked up. Tried their dammdest to get Pat locked up or committed. They took control of the estate. Cut pat off completely . He lost the apartment and everyone in his family turned against him over money. Left him alone, cold stone on the street. It was terrible. Pat was and still is an emotional wreck. Everyone had turned their back on him . he had no where to go but sleep in the park.

Captain Sava-Ho to the rescue. Pat stayed here up until this week. I think he found some work. We got way to close. It started out one night when me, pat Linda got some really good shit an dwhen me and Pat did it we looked at Linda and the three way she always drempt of was on. Well that was a mistake. It was fun the first few times but now Linda won’t have anything to do with Pat after we let her watch me fuck him. Another mistake. Now Pats all over me like white on rice. All touchy feely and shit and I just wish it could go back to the way it used to be because I have known Pat for 5 years and this aint the Pat I know. But God damm John that boy has a tight hole WOOF! Err But anyway…..

Linda won $500 and smoked it up. Didn’t take care of her warrants for child support. They picked her up today. She is in CCDC. I have no idea how long she will be there.

OK there’s your briefing my figures are tired. I will fill you in later. So since your parole went thru I assume you will be out in 4 months? Whets your plans? How you been. Been getting your dick sucked good in there? Tell me whets up with you. Catha later bro.

Love Ya!,

J.C.